One of the things I learned at rehab was that everyday is another opportunity to do the next right thing to get my life headed in the right direction. There’s the obvious things like staying sober and thanking my Higher Power, but there’s another facet to it, there’s learning to live with my mental issues, my feelings of not belonging, feelings of guilt, shame and inadequacy, feelings of not loving myself entirely. These are the things I need to work on, but I’m a very impatient person who loves instant gratification. These are the feelings I need help with.
I have everything anyone could ask for. I have an awesome husband that spoils me whenever he can, I have awesome children that try their best to help me too. I have a roof over my head and food on the table to be thankful for and 2 puppies that love me unconditionally. From the outside, my life looks perfect. So why am I still stuck in these suspicious feelings and jealousy?? I feel like I haven’t forgiven myself entirely for my sinning life and am projecting them on the ones that love me the most.
So if anyone out there can relate to this, please leave a comment or a like. Thank you for reading this!